Secular Sacraments
- Apr 15, 2024
- 1 min read
Updated: Apr 19, 2024
Written by Faith-Ann English

life has taught meÂ
that lies are gospel truth.
every lie to escape the lips
is the holy word.
the voices of the clergyÂ
ring in my head—
italicized.
don't sit like that.
it’s not ladylike!
don't let anyone touch youÂ
where you shouldn't be touched.
do what is right.
I molded myself into a temptationÂ
because I wanted to be desired
but, I'm tired of them asking—
what are you wearing?
I pronounce to myself
it’s okay
they’re attracted to me
they want me—
it's a lie.
they want what I have sacrificed.
I’m too much,Â
yet not enough for them to love.
my self-invalidation
offers others an invitation
to accept the alter call,
and desecrate my body’s sanctuary—
to leave nothing
but the smallest speckÂ
of self-hatred disguised asÂ
acceptance.
- habits of a girl who hated herself