Inspired by the song “Simulation Swarm” by Big Thief
I wanted more than
you could give a friend in need
we held hands and
I could feel them start to bleed
I’ve been told by
exes and friends that I
want it too much
but we all just want to be loved
Hear my breathing
our lungs are syncing up
I held your face and
wished for time to stop
Two-thirds lovely-
the rest im not enough
Kiss me softly
could you be a lil’ more rough
Never lonely
Look into your eyes so warm
Eat my heart please
I need you to want me more
And now im lonely
and left without a word
Cried my eyes out
I can see your getting bored
If I could go back
and stop it all before
you could hurt me
and leave me on the bathroom floor
I had no idea
of the mess you'd get me in
Watching all your friends
sleeping in your bed
If I knew any better
I’d go back in time
and underneath the guises
I’ll hold you by my side
Even then
You're a stranger
I'm not young and blonde
I saw you staring
Faceless- words are calm
Even then
Hold me tightly
I'm left here in the cold
Withering kindly-
stare into your soul
My thoughts are foolish
I'm waiting for the time
All those tarot card readings
and the hope you'll change your mind
Wasting nights and
waiting by the phone
Evening nights afraid
I’ll always be alone
and even then
I’ll try again.